Being unemployed

I'm officially, a bum, an unemployed bum.
I'm not enjoying it, its really not very fun at all.
I've been applying for jobs non stop, i have a telephone interview at a bank on Friday, it happens to be in Derby, over 100 miles away from where i live, but my Nan lives in Derby, so if i get it i will go and live with her.
It seems crazy, that i spend all my time, terrified of people leaving me, and hating not being around the people i love 24/7 but i am prepared to move to Derby.
Robert is officially going out with Adam now, and i can see it lasting a long time, and even if it doesn't, i shouldn't let me and Robert go back to the way we were, because i'll only have to go through all this again in the future.
I know i need to start living life for myself and get used to my own company and be happy with that, and get all the other areas in my life to a point where i am happy with them.

My list
1. Getting a Job
2. Being able to spend time on my own, without feeling depressed
3. Lose weight
4. Quit smoking
5. Save money
6. Buy a Chanel Foundation

Last year i quit my job in a bank to go to college and study media Make-up.
I have realised my ambition isn't to be a make-up artist, but to earn enough money to buy all the make-up i want, and store it, and organise it, and play with it.
As soon as i started college all my inspiration went and make-up wasnt fun any more, since i left college, i've become obsessed with my make up again and i love it!!
I think its time to tidy my room, sort out my make up desk, and start afresh.
I'm feeling happier, just for writing this, i dont quite have the motivation i need, but i want to work on it.